When your mind gets in the way of your best intentions

 So today, so far, has been one of those days. I day where my mind has been overwhelmed with the uncertainties of life. Things that don't really matter and that aren't worth the worry but that I let overcome me occasionally.

I set out to run 7 miles this morning and could barely go 3. I've run 5 miles for two days in a row and felt great both times. But today my mind wouldn't let go. I couldn't find freedom on the road like I usually do.

I'm overwhelmed with the thought of our taxes. We understand that we're going to owe a lot of money to the IRS, and we're okay with that. We've given when God has prompted us to give and we've done so generously, so I know that it will all work out, but I still find it all over my mind. And it makes me mad. I don't think taxes are worth the worry. I know the devil is creating doubt in my mind.

Then I found out today that one of my dear friends may be having her 2nd NKH baby. (for more information on NKH go to http://www.nkh-network.org/) The family that has brought me to a place of understanding and faith in God, now faces the uncertain diagnosis of the possibility of 2 NKH babies. All I could do was fall to my knees.

I know our God is good. I know that He can do what He says He can do. And I know that I will not fully understand until I see His face. I look at Him through the eyes of a child, often with confusion, sometimes with anger, but always with Love.

And today the only thing I know to do is pray. To seek Him. To lift to Him the things that really matter like healthy babies.

What a swift awakening to the things that really don't deserve the worry of my mind. I am making the rest of my day one full of pray that will be lead by my heart, not by my stupid head. I refuse to let the devil rein there. I refuse to allow Him in to fill my mind with insignificant matters of this world.

I refuse to let my mind get in the way of my best intentions. I will set my focus on the things that matter. On the love of a savior who lived for us, no matter how much we will never deserve His grace, we have it.