They Say a Baby Changes Everything

You would think that baby #3 wouldn't change too much. Especially after being a family of 6 while we had 2 foster babies, I didn't think that our sweet baby boy would change too much.

But today I find myself thinking that everything is changing. I have this uncontrollable desire to write (something that I realize I have desperately missed for the past couple months). I want to run. I want to cook. I want to re-decorate.

And in the mist of all the things I want to do, I find myself questioning everything I've ever done and all the decisions I've ever made.

They say having a baby changes everything.

And maybe he is changing everything.

I am so in love. He is perfect and snuggly and everything we ever could have asked for.

But with him comes fear and passion and a yearning. A yearning to be more and do more. A crazy desire to fling my bible wide open and not take my nose out of it until it all makes sense. I want to sit on the back porch with my hubby, drink red wine, and talk life and love and babies and the future.

They say having a baby changes everything.

And maybe it does. Maybe he will change everything I know the other 2 did. Why would he be any different?

So in love tonight......