But today I find myself thinking that everything is changing. I have this uncontrollable desire to write (something that I realize I have desperately missed for the past couple months). I want to run. I want to cook. I want to re-decorate.
And in the mist of all the things I want to do, I find myself questioning everything I've ever done and all the decisions I've ever made.
They say having a baby changes everything.
And maybe he is changing everything.
I am so in love. He is perfect and snuggly and everything we ever could have asked for.
But with him comes fear and passion and a yearning. A yearning to be more and do more. A crazy desire to fling my bible wide open and not take my nose out of it until it all makes sense. I want to sit on the back porch with my hubby, drink red wine, and talk life and love and babies and the future.
They say having a baby changes everything.
And maybe it does. Maybe he will change everything I know the other 2 did. Why would he be any different?
So in love tonight......
